A day !

It was my first day in the new city.

Actually, I am in the capital of India.

I have been called here on the immediate basis for the training. So, it's like a small vacation for me.

They don't want me in the office for next two days, and I have a list to follow in these days.

I was like a camper since the morning. Been to three malls, one cafe, two restaurants, a movie hall, a garden, a spa, a convention hall.

My Google fit is showing 10km in the walking clock. It must be so happy to see new figures in the dial.

I met two couples, a masseuse, a security guard, four to five booking and food attendants.

Each of them had stories in their eyes. My masseuse Julia, is from North eastern part of the country. She and her sister lives in Delhi, both works in the same industry, i.e SPA & BEAUTY.

Guess what !! She and I, both have very minor difference difference in Salary. I was actually trying to find out how and what to learn to be a masseuse.

Both the couples were working in IT industry. Both were different parts of the country.

All the food attendants, security guard and the cook I have been provided in the Guest house; are from Nepal.

This is the seventh hour of my roaming day.

I asked one question with one or other sentence and words in all interactions I did today.

What you're gonna do with the money you get?

And you know what was the sense they wanted to buy??

All of them needed some sort of stability in life. No matter if they had a car, a wife, a bf/gf or a sound job, a decent salary (unlike me) or a religion (count me on the other side).

They were insecure of something.

Don't know, of what. But they were. They would use the earned money to fill in this insecurity. This hollowness they have in their heart. I am sure, all of the above, having some material things is not solving this situation. 

But they need security.

Satisfaction? I am not sure, but if they are in search, I guess satisfaction will be an impractical goal to get.

I am still in awe.

Do I have or will have the same sense of insecurity? Not having something? Or fear of losing somethings?

I am in the garden and watching a small kid, may be of a year, playing with grass. Trying to bite the spades. Kid isn't aware what is being lost in this dire time.

What he will have in life and what will he lose. He isn't giving a damn to his mother right now, even. And I am pretty sure he won't have given a damn to this insecurity his parents have for him.

I want to be this kid again.

Don't you?

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Finding the Lost needle !

There is a lovable story on Rabia Basri and Hassan.

Not much is known about Rabia because of two reasons, One she was a Female Saint and Second she was from Iraq.

Tons and tons of wars have been played since 700 AD in Iraq. Though, this story survived. Not because it is about magic or miracle, but because it's about some common sense.

Rabia lost her sewing needle one day and was searching on the ground. Neighbors saw old woman Rabia and came to help. After a while one asked what she was looking for?

A needle, she replied, I lost it in the morning while sewing the cloth. 

Another asked, Where you lost it, Rabia?

In the kitchen, she said.

All of them stand stunned and speechless, as Rabia lost the needle in the Kitchen and was searching it on the streets.

One pissed off and said, You are such an idiot. You lost the needle in Kitchen and searching for it on the streets, how the hell would you ever find it here?

Her reply makes a mark on the history.

Her words travelled thousand of years. Impacted million and millions of people.

And one who gets them, gets the essence of the Life.

She replied, It's dark in Kitchen so even if I look for it there, I won't get it.

I met four new investors last weekend. All of them are having a positioned life. Car, Bungalows, Assets, Saving and what not.

But here is the fact. 

None of them is happy.

All are super competitive, rich but ridden with jealousy, educated but blind with trust issues, having a high standards of living but low humility.

I am sure, they all are searching their needles in the dark.



Watch this man's video... You will die laughing !!

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Please don't change the World !

I have been an Engineer, handling the entire Crude distillation unit of the Asia's second largest refinery.

I have been an Entrepreneur, heading three businesses.

I have been a Consultant, to Entrepreneurs, Professionals and Non-professional people of almost three continents.

I am trying to be a Researcher.

I am trying to be a Leader.

I am trying to be a Professor

I am trying to find a soul mate

I am trying to be a good Son, Friend, Responsible citizen and Non responsible big brother.

What is that one thing that I am not trying to do?

I am not trying to be the change that I want to see in the world.

I'll tell you one thing.

This is the bravest statement ever.

This is shit.

Please don't change the world.

Why?

In the last decade of my life, I've realized one simple thing.

Whenever you wish or want to change the world, something shit is going to happen.

It doesn't matter if that will happen with you or not, but it will be shit.

Why you would want to change the entire World? Just because you have an itchy ass and don't have anything else to do?

Or because you think there is still a room for improvement in the entire World according to your principles.

I am not sure what else could be the case, but please don't change the world.

World is the perfect in every and each scenario.

You are the perfect in every and each scenario.

This world doesn't need more of the change makers, engineers, business persons, leaders, doctors or assholes.

It needs,

Acts of kindness,

Gestures of love,

And selfless attitudes.

 These three things will only seem logical, doable, rational, executable, feasible, workable or needed, only when you are not in the herd who would want to be the change just so the world can be changed.

These are my favorite lines,

" If you want to do it, there must not be any reason,

If you don't, there can not be any excuse ! "

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When Love Happens !

I am not sure if this is my cup of tea or not.

Love is not what happens to you,
It is what you are happening for !

I have read this one also,

Love said to me, There's nothing that is not me. Be silent.

This is from Rumi.

He was just amazing.

I have been in Love.

I never was into the person.

Most of the time, we were distant.

But I have had that special feeling for the said one.

Nah.. I wasn't teenager, I wasn't an amateur.

I was the love. 

There was not much of a chance to go for looks, to go for habits, to go for gestures or attitude or anything else that can be seen.

We were to have talks. Only talks.

Though, we were like the two beats of a heart.

I am not sure, but love is something which is bit larger than the self kinda phenomenon.

You can not control it, can not maneuver it, can not work with it, can not work without it then or can not even live in it or out of it.

It is not something which went off with the breakup.

It taught me something more than 'I' or 'We'.

It taught me the other side of life, where I can be whoever I want to be... no no..wait...where I be what exactly I am.


I don't think I can write or describe it with more words.

SO, just enjoy.

And be, fall, rise, dive, jump, run in love.

Love you all !



P.S :

This is very beautiful.

Source: https://asmakarif.wordpress.com/2008/10/03/love-said-to-me-by-maulana-rumi/

I worship the moon.
Tell me of the soft glow of a candle light
and the sweetness of my moon.

Don’t talk about sorrow,
tell me of that treasure,
hidden if it is to you,
then just remain silent.

Last night
I lost my grip on reality
and welcomed insanity.
Love saw me and said,
I showed up.
Wipe your tears
and be silent.

I said, O Love I am frightened, but it’s not you.
Love said to me, there is nothing that is not me.
be silent.

I will whisper secrets in your ear
just nod yes
and be silent.

A soul moon
appeared in the path of my heart.
How precious is this journey.

I said, O Love
what kind of moon is this?
Love said to me,
this is not for you to question.
be silent.

I said, O Love
what kind of face is this,
angelic, or human?
Love said to me,
this is beyond anything that you know.
Be silent.

I said, please reveal this to me
I am dying in anticipation.
Love said to me,
that is where I want you:
Always on the edge,
be silent.
You dwell in this hall of
images and illusions,
leave this house now
and be silent.

I said, O Love, tell me this:
Does the Lord know you are
treating me this way?
Love said to me,
yes He does,
just be totally…
totally… silent

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Human : An unfinished Animal ?

Damn you Adam Smith.

Read Economist, Financial Express, Washington Post, Guardian, EPW, NY Times, Times.

Almost all others too, have written on the beginning of the fall of Capitalism.

Why?

Because it sucks.

Think deeply, answer to this your own self while in bed, Why the hell will you wake up in the morning and go to work?

Money? Network? Work environment? Your GF or Wife works there too? Targets? Bonus? 

Or

Inspiration? Motivation? Passion? May be I'll create something new tomorrow? Ideas? People who are as mad as I'm and we're going to change the world together?

I never fell in the second list.

Never.

I have been working, had to work and may be will work, just to get a safe life.

Money is the centre point.

Who the fuck did this to me?

You. You fucking Capitalism. No one else. You.

Adam Smith's pivot for the Idea on Industrialisation was??

Any Guess?

Well, he thought, Humans are so lazy to work so only the methods of Incentivizing them and giving them enough pressure along with it, will make them work.

And two centuries passed, what we're doing?

Do you remember the last time when you thought to punch your boss in the face?

I do.

Today.

And I'm gonna do it one day, soon.

They say, even if we're wrong about the Idea of Cosmos, they will go on as they are supposed to.

It is not with Humans.

We understand ourselves and the world around us with the help of Ideas.

How many died with Syrian revolt till date?

May be 2 Million. Or more.

Why?

They thought, suppression and autocratic rule is the Idea to understand the Regime.

One of the great Anthropologist said,

Man is the most Unfinished Animal.

Why?

Because we still are figuring out what and who are we.

So don't be Finished ones.

Find the Idea which you think you must work on or for, not on the ones your Boss says.

Caution: It may happen to one in seven billion of us who's boss is right.

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A smart world

(A tribute to the Syrian Boy)

I have a habit.

Whenever I get time, I go online and watch videos of change makers. 

Larry Page, Steve Jobs, Elon Musk, Obama, Narendra Modi, Mark, Rupert, Nicolas.

Why do they do what they do?

This is the only question I have in mind whenever I watch their speeches.

No, we are using the theorem in wrong manner.

Or may be the theorem is wrong.

We don't need a better world.

You have a car.

Now, you get two or three or Ferrari or higher models.

Is it good? Or better?

Larry once in a talk told, he sees the companies as the agents of change.

When I asked to people in my city, who have companies, almost all said, they want to make this world a better place to live.

I am not sure how clear they are or will be in future.

I don't a better world.

What would it like to be if you get the powers of Superman for one whole year?

You'll fly.

Scan people with your X-ray vision. Cook chicken with laser eyes. Run around the galaxy to see more stars. May be find some new habitats in space.

Then?

If you're a Superman, this will take no more than couples of months.

Okay, so now say, you can share your powers to make others Superman, then?

Well, you will make couples more.

They'll do the same.

They'll make others.

And by the end of the year. Half of the Earth is Superman Superwoman.

They spread out, and in another month or so make the rest of half Superman Superwoman.

Did you get a better world?

I am not sure, but if I would answer this, it is No.

No
No
No
No

I need a smarter world. 

Not full of Superman Superwoman.

What is a smarter world?

The one which....

Get your imaginations running now...!!

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What are you ?

Makers : Who work for the Future

Innovators and Creative ones : Who define the future

Dreamers : Who dreams/imagine the future

----

I have recently started to follow Google ATAP channel on YouTube.

Amazing people, futuristic project and great possibilities.

One of the project is for Textile.

An IT company working for Textile.

You should watch.

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We started communication with Dr Nicolas Perony last month.


He headed Data Centre labs in Zurich.


When we wrote him a mail, it was just a guess. Never thought he would reply.


Why should he?


But he did.


We are gathering up people for the project,now.


Only if you can challenge your limits, you can grow.


We are practically trying to dissolve the limits. One city, one network, one device, one access and you can see the future.


I have worked with politicians, scholars, engineers, management people and home maker moms.


What is that one thing, if given a chance, I would change in all of them?


They don't dream !
They wish !


What they get at the end?


Nothing. Just a wish-list that never come true.


Only if you can dream beyond limits, you can challenge them.


And last,


There's something called Google syndrome. People think they can built their own Google. Not doing so, because they've other priorities.


I haven't seen any of them ever trying to learn who founded Google.


Neither have seen an Ad for new search engine recently.


Larry has said one thing in his interview with TED.


Google is working on ideas to solve billion people's problems, not on the billion dollar ideas.


Of course he has those many billions, so it's makes sense for him for to say.


No. Absolutely no.


Only if you can dream big enough, you can dream beyond limits.


What is dreaming big?


Not focusing a niche in the first place. Start with small, but get a thing which can hammer billion lives.


Let me correct...


Get a thing which can hammer billion lives DAILY.


And please don't Google how built a new search engine.


There're plenty of space for you to dream. And it's dreams. Why you want to re-invent anything even in dreams?


Dream a Ele-corn, not Unicorn...!!


What are you, by the way?

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Lesson #1 : Don't plan for the Perfection !

...and how much we lost ?

...almost the entire amount !

Any way to settle ? Should we file a suit ?

Hmm...it will be a civil suit and may take fifteen to seventeen years of trial, and there are much of the chances that he'll walk out safe.

..but how the hell this happened ? Didn't we plan for it ?

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Plan : a detailed proposal of doing or achieving something, says the dictionary.

I'm about to start the next set of business and still the previous blunders haunt me. Haunt the shit out of me. 

What if, the plan doesn't work out? What if the product isn't ready by the time? What if product is a shit? What if the market won't click? What if the network will break? What if there will be legal issues? What if the investors back out? What if the same things will repeat like last time?

What if !

Shit...it freaks me out. Sometimes I can't go to sleep thinking it.

But I'm getting better. 

Better and better at failing. 

Yes. Failing !

This is probably the fourth business in my twenties. And I don't think this will float like a duck.

Then why am I doing this?

Well, I'm in love with the concept and think it will solve a million people's daily problem.

Then why I think it will fail?

Because, I know it will. I always plan for the perfection. And it never goes as planned. So for me, every trial is a failure.

But not in the words of dictionary. My meaning for failure is; another way to know where the success isn't now !

Nothing is permanent. 

A green cafe, the whole and organic food, self brewed beer, solar and biogas powered outlet, battery driven delivery system, making every customer a stakeholder, idea; failed miserably. 

One knucklehead plotted a fraud deal for the rented space, so we lost a huge amount, investors got pissed, partners ran, workers fought for commitment, courts and police didn't help.

Now, there are people calling twice in a month to work for the same idea. How ? Did I do a magic?

Nope. Just time changed. Idea has its potential now when there is a huge capital proposed for the green and clean technology driven businesses.

Even if I'll take the call and start working for it again, I know it will fail. Why? Again, I planned it for the perfection.

A plan for the perfection has always failed on me.

But it has always showed me another way to race. It is not the destination, they say that matters, it is the journey. 

So, I learn from mistakes, and do some more to learn some more. The day I stop doing it, the day I'll be out of last breathe.

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The Maze Runner

A good book.

Nice movie.

A brilliant re-creation of sociological and anthropological scenarios of mankind.

I am not a first day first show or queue man for movies. I watch once the DVDs are out.

If you or anyone else or I were put on the same place of Alby or Thomas, what would you have done?

Exactely !!

Created rules, habitat, social life stones and brought the people together spreading belongingness and belief in system.

Thomas is kind of good but my favourite character is Minho.

Why?

Thomas knew what he should do, Alby knew what has to be done, all Chuck was trying to do understand what to do but Minho he was different.

He dared to be the lead runner.

A normal Chinese guy, no upper hand, no beautiful girl besides him, no know-how of what the hell was going to happen next, no matter who was right and who was wrong, he just ran.

Ran for three damn years and mapped the entire maze.

What he was lacking?

Nothing. 

Ohh... wait... he was bit afraid and less curious, and maybe he was just running.

But I still like his character.

I am not Thomas or Alby.

I need supports, inspirations, beliefs, trusts, guidance and someone besides me to crack the code.

I can't do that on my own.

Lead ? Yes I can. Explore? Yes I can. Dare? Yes I can. 

Alone? No can do !!

Who's your favourite?

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P.S : Before saying anything, please watch the movie or read the book first. Pretty please.

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Investment of a Lifetime !

I went to visit a Construction firm. For a project proposal

They, straight away said, 'No' !

I was bit concerned about the proposal. 

It rained while I was there, waiting for my return. 

Crap !

All the documents, computer, cell, money and I, were sogging. 

I rushed to the nearest cafe had some coffee. 

A rainy, wet and rejection filled afternoon.

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I was going through the comments last night. 

One said, " I write sad things ! "

So, this is for you;

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I have a masters degree in Finance. 

People, mostly friends and some who want to be friends, ask me for advices on, where to invest and what to buy, what to sell, how to grow dollars in my backyard.

Even in a meditation workshop last month, I was open for Q&A and one lady asked the same question.

I had to round this question off with the theme than to my financial senses. 

Never Invest, I said.

No, never !

She, as well as all others, stunned, hearing this !

I was a little frustrated on the Rain this afternoon. 

The moment I had my coffee on the table, I remembered the last monsoon when hiking to the old fort, a couples of friends and I had a fun time together.

I cleared the tab, went to the corner and walked in the rain for three four minutes.

It was not the rain, bothering me. 

It was this proposal.

Why you shouldn't invest?

Life is not a proposal, which has to be waited for a long process for approval and then celebration.

Life is cash. 

Right here, Right now.

You must know how to spend it. 

Right purchase, will give you the smiles.

My right purchase for today was the Ability to accept.

I accepted the rejection.

And the rain, which almost was about to give me a runny nose, became the reason to enjoy, smile, have a coffee and gifted this post to write.

Never Invest !

Always spend !

Life is Cash !

Right purchase, and you'll get the smiles !

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...So that's how it starts !

...who's you ?

.... I am you... few weeks back, I tried to be there, but you didn't give me a chance !

...so now what you want?

...nothing, just nothing. I don't want anything, I just want you to accept me !

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...So that's how it starts. The Fever. The Rage. The feeling of Powerlessness, that turns good men...cruel !

Batman v Superman 

I just love this quote. I don't know whether the movie will beat the Batman trilogy or not, but this quote has done the magic.

I have been meeting new people since last month or so.

I met a person in Human Resources today. Works in a Micro-finance firm. Helping in nature. 

I asked why do you help others, while leaving? "Because I know how it feels when there is no help available" , he said.

I had enough time to think over it.

Have I ever helped my own self?

Have I ever even let my own self to express fully, without any rules, regulations, taboos, dorms?

I am not sure. 

I am not sure, what if I have allowed me to express the fully who all would have accepted the show and who all not !

Are we not the ones to play by rules set by others?

Each time, I had told myself to be in the box for few hours, I had rejected me. I wasn't sure if that 'me' had placed a show or not, but I certainly rejected the possibility of it.

I have started to watch my deeper, dormented, suppressed, drowned self in past one or one and a half weeks. 

I am not enjoying it.

I am feeling full.

Letting the old me to express. Accepting him, his possibility, making me quite vulnerable, but I am accepting me.

Letting me to play the field. 

Am I changing ?

Not sure, but I think I could be. No-one from the circle left me so can't be sure. I still eat, sleep, work, write.

What has changed then ?

May be my limits. They broadened. My self. I am growing. Opening up to possibilities of what I could do, think, dream, be.

I don't want to die in Chaos.

Certainly not.

Are you open, the most possible version of you ? 

If not. Read the quote.

...So that's how it starts...!!!

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The Anger Issue !

Have you ever been angry ?

Well, I have !

Frankly, I have beaten people, one of them bleed also. 

I have anger.

Suppressed, anger.

Why?

I am not sure if this has something to do with my guilt or courage or confidence or not, but I am sure for one thing.

Whenever, there was something wrong with me while facing the real or brutal truth, I got confused, and wasn't able to showcase the exact, needed emotion and converted that energy to anger.

Like, when I got failed for the first time in my entire career.

What did I do?

Well, not certainly talking to my parents or my friends as why I didn't as well as I wanted to do.

I didn't have that much of a courage that time. Maybe I still don't have.

So, I balanced the courage with anger and stored it.

Last night, I yelled at one of my programmer, fired him, took the work, paid amount back, made a big scene.

I realised this morning, this had to do with my failure issues, called him back, reposted him with some other work.

What I learned ?

Maybe we can have anger, but the best thing is that, when you know how to say SORRY to someone.

Gratitude !

Past : You lost or You won !

I have a theory.

If you think it is, go and get a coffee.

If you think it isn't, go and get a coffee.

Here's the thing:

I never remembered when I had Chinese in Last months.

I never remembered how many steps are there to my home from market.

I never remembered ever when I had run a mile and when a mile and a five feet.

I never remembered when I had three liters of water and when I had three and half.

I don't even remember day before yesterday what I had in Food.

Why?

Because, these things don't matter much to me when it comes to my competitive self.

On the first sight, one of my best friend told me I should shave for I look like an Indian Dacoit.

I picked up it, stored it and now just remebered it. 

Why?

Because, I don't want to loose my appearance to a dacoit.

I always store things which either make me win or loss.

What about you?

Is money good ?

I get this question a lot.

It's like a world's common question. But the sad thing is that, it has answer. And it will work only for you. Not others.

All have asked, 

Is money good? 
Is power good?
Is having more good? 
Is having good at all?
Do we have to be good?

I call this a ERP problem. When we go for the Enterprise software, it makes the processes digitalize, doesn't matter process is good or bad for the function. 

Same is with these things.

You have it. If you can use your discernment, use it for good or bad, doesn't make much of the sense.

I have had few bucks, I spent them on weird technologies and startups.

My friend had money, he went to Malaysia for family trip. My old boss got some money, he bought a farm. My uncle got money selling a farm, he invested into stocks.

Who is doing good?

Can't say now. Wait and you'll read it here.

But what if Malaysia doesn't come out to be a great choice for family trip, or what if the stock market goes woohoo like 2008 !

Who is going to earn?

Does it make any sense? Who earns and who doesn't?

Well, only when someone was inspired and made a choice.

So, make money and spend on booze, or cruise or gals or shop, or buy a trip to Mars. None of these make sense, when it will be only yours and yours decision to do so.

Else, what would happen?

Well, I have a great deal of patience to wait and write your question in the list.

Don't blame the money, booze, gals, Malaysia, Stocks, Mars for turning out into loss or not. Take a call and play.

Because at the end, the one who will need the answers, is you. And believe me, when you can say this, 

"So what's the big deal? I did it !!"

It feels like heaven !!

Love you all ! 

The Two Face

Yes, it's me !

I am the two face.

Wait, I think we all are.

And I'm not talking about the phrase, two face. It's a villain in Batman.

The most appreciated public prosecutor, Harvey Dent.

He used to serve for city, culling all the bad ass from city. If you know, he was the one to get Rachel initially.

Story goes one and he got hurt at the end with a horrible accident, jeopardy and became The Two Face !

It's a thrilling movie. 

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I have been engaged with some more work with start-up strategy forming, had a good day, great start with Ginger tea (even having right now), good lunch, met a friend, spicy dinner.

But am I happy today ?

Well, I am but I am not.

Had to go to market in the evening to get some vegetables and grocery.

I noticed few more things about my behaviour today. I had in mind to cook eggs or rice.

The entire time, mind was juggling in between eggs and rice. I know neither them of both, a bad choice, though; when it came to take a decision, mind was running like a complex test parameter based scenario analysis model to judge what would suit my mood.

Just for the sake of favour, I was having almost 6 to 7 reasons, why I should cook rice tonight, and 3 to 4 why to go with eggs.

Here is the catch.

All 4 in the favor of eggs were against rice and same was with other scenario. It was hard to make a decision. Both were good, and I knew, I would make the best food tonight, which in fact I did.

But why the choices?

Why the choices which say one is good over others?

Is it really necessary all the times?

Does one option is truley better than the other?

Hmmm... !!

Here is my take on this.

Neither of them are good or bad individually, they both were at par actually.

This isn't only the case with eggs or rice. I was observing my past few days and choices I had made.

I have been baffled in making a decision when I had struck the decision parameter of Value.

Eggs or Rice, value can be different for each, but not the quality.

One has made me happy sometimes, and other has done the same some other times. It was more of the choice to go with the one who had better quality in making me happy.

This was the clashing point for me.

I was trying to measure the Happiness. I am not sure whether I was or I am right in doing so, with eggs or rice, or with the conditions where I had to take the difficult choice, but now I know one more thing about me.

I don't want to measure the Happiness. It isn't a quantity. It's quality.

Chaos V. Order

or

I V. Me   



Good night !