People Connect

Yes they do.

They just need some reasons for it. At a cafe, bar, restaurant, community programs, fairs, work, meetings, movies. Everywhere.

I have been following the works of Dr Yuval Harari. He has a very intriguing talk on TED.

His works focus on history and rise of the Sapiens. His books are amazing to read. In videos and book he explains why we were able to be the most suitable and united species from the evolution. Definitely, his theories focus on the soft sides of it and not the rationally driven biology or chemistry or genetics one.

The core of the momentum is, we connect, we imagine, we care and we dream. The essence is We.

I found this thing working. I connected with few people today. Two at one cafe. One at the convention centre. One at the restaurant and one at my favourite tea stall.

What was common with all of them?

Well, they all were part of a dream. A dream which I am trying to sell them. A dream for which they see the togetherness and unity. A dream to which they can share their skills and motives. And this is great.

If things go smooth, I'll be having a team made out of them. Or maybe with all of them. Who knows. But I realized one thing more than just connecting. What if we can be together and share the feelings, the pains, problems, hurdles, mistakes, lacuna. What if for the sake of the us all, we can work together just not to prove who or what is the best, but to see how many alternatives can be there. What if for that once, we can work not to find answers to the common questions, but the ways to solve them. May be, then, poverty can have ten solutions. May be one atomic reactor design, or high pressure turbine can have five models to work with,

Isn't is there that the source is focused or localised with the mighty few? Those who can learn, can solve. What if the crowd can give us the list of the best workable and suitable features? Who knows?

What do I know?

We connect. And I felt that today.

Thanks India. Thanks Pune. Thanks Earth.

Love you all !

Shit Happens !

Yeah.

Absolutely ! Shit happens ! And very often than we think it can or should.

People get away with your money, you can broke into the business, you can get fancy degrees, you can have tons of circles to follow, you can have impenetrable plans, you can have a smooth morning, a bumpy afternoon, a rough evening and fucked up night. You can sit together watching things burn around you and flush the responsibility, suck the motivation out and play hide for couples of months, assuming it looks like a system failure and someone else must do the job on it to restart the game.

But you know what, even it will restart, there isn't any guarantee that it will get you enough. I didn't get it. Never. Umm huh, not a single time. Work for fourteen hours, earn like a pump station, blow like the Sun, save like a broker and what do I get... Shit !

Nothing. Not a single thing is making anysense. Work, Money, Food, Relations, Passion, Love, Dreams, Sex, Motives, Feelings, Emotions and not the damn Life even. Nothing is giving that ounce of peace. Happinees...!!

There's a thin line to Satisfaction and Happiness.

I am satisfied.

Not sure about Happiness.

Are you ?

Bad to Good

A very Bad day for Good.

Had a rough start. Laptop crashed and I was in pain, It was as intense as having a break-up. I actually thought for a moment all my motives to live the life on have gone forever. I lost data, business files, cartoon, my collection of stand-up shows, photos, videos, blog notes everything. And I can not just believe on me for not having back-up.

Fuck !

I had to call Tech support. Guess what ! They can not help if you have a piece out of warranty. Can you believe?

I was looking for my all the contacts to search whom I can go to for getting my baby life. Agony, Pain, Stress, Anger, Foolishness and Feeling of getting the soul crushed into tiny pieces. My god. I was in hell searching for some Ice.

Like all the stories, one of the friends emerged in the afternoon like savior and formatted, replaced the OS and checked the Hard drive, Motherboard and what not. I got the machine back late in the afternoon, but there I realized, I have feelings for machines also :(

I just can't believe not taking the backups. How idiot I can be at times. And how many more times.

Well, it was a frustrating day. Was doing nothing in the evening being the aftershocks of the grief. Had to go for daily jog though.

Sitting numbly at the cafe for couples of hours, when I went to the counter for the memo, an old was clearing out; asked me what I think of the new energy policy of this government. In a shock for a second, I responded in an awe. (Why the hell I should know what they are onto?) For starter I chose word Optimistic.

And it worked.

He was like, getting the exact word he was looking to tag the policy dilemma, since past century. He offered another cup of coffee. We chatted on few topics, I was dragging the discussion for the sake of conversation. But what you know?

I was getting relaxed actually. This conversation was making my agony a little less sharp by every minute I spend in the discussion. Don't know how, but I think this is the key.

Interactions with others make us believe. Make us believe on the life, streams of Good and Bad events, that nothing will be permanent, Machines can be repaired, Too much coffee can make you run for hours, dinner senses die with coffee and much more.

I learned one more thing about me. I need people to connect, share, talk, express, relax, live and experience the balance.

People make me what I am and can inspire what more I can be ever, I guess. But this evening was Bad to Good transformative phenomenon which I witnessed accurately with all my senses and perhaps gratitude, on.

Thanks People.

Love you all.

Take care.

Movie of the Day

Not so bad day.

Had good tea, proper lunch. Worked for couples of hours. Full sleep had made some miracles on the mind. 

Afternoon was pleasing. No disturbances at all. I watch trailers. I watch while keeping the video on mute. Trying to understand the sequences and the story plot. It helps me a lot to know how the fractions from entire movie moulded in a single one or one and half minutes makes me wonder for more, makes me sad sometimes, excites me, rambles my imagination, twist my logic and bend perceptions, stopping to conclude a sane sense out of it.

I watched the compilation of Harry Potter's all Eight movie trailers. 

Here is the link :

Of course the movies were released couples of years back, so when I watched all of their trailers, I didn't get much of the feelings. In fact, I skipped in between to see last two movies' trailers.

But since then I passed my entire evening and dinner time thinking, why I wasn't any of the feelings I got when I had seen the trailers for the first time. Certainly, all eight parts were awesome and I have watched the entire saga for at least four times in a row.

I went to my daily run and was jogging after the dinner. I was watching others on streets. Observing them, some were buying things, some were eating, some were talking, some were jogging like me. I noticed one lady shouting her husband's name maybe. I slowed for like three four seconds to take a peep in the entire event panorama: Her husband was on the opposite track, at the end of the side. Even if she had been using the 500 W speakers, with this much crowd, the gentleman could have got some peaks only. But don't why this lady was not getting the point. She was in some strong feelings may be and so wasn't able to get the situation, traffic, distance, decibel of her own voice, hearing ability of her husband.

I came back drained. Soaked in sweat. Got a quick bath and started to work on strategy for the next phase of the start up. But entire time, that lady and the compilation were bothering me. After like an hour or so, I sat with some hot tea to figure out what the hell was my brain trying to do.

Maybe I understood one thing about the life. I have had some many feelings for the trailers. But once I watched the movies, I understood each of them in depth. I got a chance to walk through each of them, the excitement, sadness, imagination and logic; during the movie. I think this is why when I usually get to know the half of the situation, guessing the other half, I get confusion, anger, rage, sadness, chaos or fears. Knowing only the half creates these anxious behaviours. And when I'm into anyone of them, just like that lady across the road, I forget why isn't my voices reaching the targets.

Anyway, I loved this day. Got to understand one more thing about me.

Thanks and Love you all.

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P.S : It's my brother's birthday today. Happy Birthday Bro !

Mountain Kill’em both

Chaos, Confusion, Recklessness, Rage and Change

If you would ever want to learn how to trash a perfect day with only an ounce of shit, meet me. I can tell you a thousand and one ways to make the guardians of hell envious of you for their entire life, in just a minute. Believe me I can.

A simple day, most loved intoxicating tea, superb scrambled eggs and toasted breads with butter, and well managed roommate, mindful maid. These are the ingredients you need to scrap the things.

Maid ironed and put the clothes in wrong cupboard, roommate misplaced the shoe-polish box, and I was on the top of the mountain Kill’em both!

This was the worst day of entire week. Why I was about to slit both of them open?

Maybe because I have a place for each stuff in the home. A reserved place for shoes, shocks, shoe-polish, iron board, iron, and a damn fucking large drawer for the ironed clothes. Large enough to shove both of them alive into.

I wish I had a sticker machine, I would have stickered each of every single slot and corner of the house saying what it is used for.

I don’t understand why people can’t get enough motivation, reason and courage use their own damn brain.

Evening was ruined because of the blasts in mood. Few students came showing interests to work on the star-up and make a college project out of it. Since last half an hour I am trying to recollect what I have told them during the entire conversation. Who knows? Definitely not me !

Dinner was shit. And the worst part, I made it.

I think my biggest disadvantage is I don’t understand this anger or rage. I don’t understand mismanagement or chaos or disturbance at micro level. Maybe I am not able to let the people do what they think is good for me or for themselves. Maybe I don’t know how to be compassionate for unplanned outcomes. Maybe I have a fear to this unplanned and unknown, chaotic, reckless, mismanaged events and/or life.

I got know one thing though, I have a stored form of energy which I am not able to decode, understand, interpret, handle, way out, stream around. I’ll have to find a path to direction this energy to create something useful else it will ruin me, burn me, dilute me or simple; my maid will leave and roommate will kick my ass out.

Greetings !

Happy Friendship day to All ! And me !!

To be or not to be

Good!

I watched Maz Jobrani’s tour videos last night. He is just awesome. I almost died laughing. I highly recommend to all those who wish to learn how to laugh on yourself, community and tragedies. Amazing man. He creates laughter from observation. Believe me, he didn’t talk anything super-special, just narrated the daily life incidents, but with different perspective. I guess this is the secret.

After not so sound sleep, I woke up two time at night maybe, I got out of bed with a strange dream. I have had less number of best friends. Almost all of them and I were eating out at some place at dream and blabbering the past of each, but we seemed happy and laughing in the dream. I am not sure whether this means I am dropping dead in aloofness or what, but let’s see what happens.

I had to meet some more people to discuss the further progress on the start-up. We had a good discussion over how the social interactions work in the society on the individual levels. How people screen the data, content and information relevant to them, and how these things can be made on the real time platform. It was a two hours long discussion with these new people to make them understand what was in my mind. I learned one more thing on human communication, pictures and visuals impact more and deliver more if represented in the correct manner, than to words or audio or writings.

Anyway, a person from the team and I had a long discussion over so many aspects afterwards. Since the midnight, when meeting got over and we left the café, we both spent another three hours to explore and understand life, society and how to know our own selves in a better manner and with what tools. I really needed this talk, was feeling so heavy since past few days to share what I know. 

Probably this is why this blog and the blog on life, maybe I think I have too much to share, not sure whether this is just a notion or a reality, but I don’t want to be judgemental on this aspect. Why? Well, because I really love this activity, when someone asks or share something with me and I give a long, detailed analysis and suggest ways to get things settled. Maybe this is a part of male ego, seeking satisfactions and getting bigger and bigger in this way, understanding my own self as some master or problem solver, or I am just a simple person who wants to help others with what I know.

I did say, I don’t want to be judgemental but after all I did do it to some extent. This shows how wrong I can be in just a period of less than ten seconds. Maybe I am vulnerable to this attribute of being judgemental about self and trying to monitor and control behaviours, or I’m little confused over the choices, to be or not to be. Whatever is the reality, I understood one thing more, I like sharing, helping and showing that I can solve problems with what I know. This is all for today.

Good night journal and people

Happy friendship day !