A day !

It was my first day in the new city.

Actually, I am in the capital of India.

I have been called here on the immediate basis for the training. So, it's like a small vacation for me.

They don't want me in the office for next two days, and I have a list to follow in these days.

I was like a camper since the morning. Been to three malls, one cafe, two restaurants, a movie hall, a garden, a spa, a convention hall.

My Google fit is showing 10km in the walking clock. It must be so happy to see new figures in the dial.

I met two couples, a masseuse, a security guard, four to five booking and food attendants.

Each of them had stories in their eyes. My masseuse Julia, is from North eastern part of the country. She and her sister lives in Delhi, both works in the same industry, i.e SPA & BEAUTY.

Guess what !! She and I, both have very minor difference difference in Salary. I was actually trying to find out how and what to learn to be a masseuse.

Both the couples were working in IT industry. Both were different parts of the country.

All the food attendants, security guard and the cook I have been provided in the Guest house; are from Nepal.

This is the seventh hour of my roaming day.

I asked one question with one or other sentence and words in all interactions I did today.

What you're gonna do with the money you get?

And you know what was the sense they wanted to buy??

All of them needed some sort of stability in life. No matter if they had a car, a wife, a bf/gf or a sound job, a decent salary (unlike me) or a religion (count me on the other side).

They were insecure of something.

Don't know, of what. But they were. They would use the earned money to fill in this insecurity. This hollowness they have in their heart. I am sure, all of the above, having some material things is not solving this situation. 

But they need security.

Satisfaction? I am not sure, but if they are in search, I guess satisfaction will be an impractical goal to get.

I am still in awe.

Do I have or will have the same sense of insecurity? Not having something? Or fear of losing somethings?

I am in the garden and watching a small kid, may be of a year, playing with grass. Trying to bite the spades. Kid isn't aware what is being lost in this dire time.

What he will have in life and what will he lose. He isn't giving a damn to his mother right now, even. And I am pretty sure he won't have given a damn to this insecurity his parents have for him.

I want to be this kid again.

Don't you?

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Finding the Lost needle !

There is a lovable story on Rabia Basri and Hassan.

Not much is known about Rabia because of two reasons, One she was a Female Saint and Second she was from Iraq.

Tons and tons of wars have been played since 700 AD in Iraq. Though, this story survived. Not because it is about magic or miracle, but because it's about some common sense.

Rabia lost her sewing needle one day and was searching on the ground. Neighbors saw old woman Rabia and came to help. After a while one asked what she was looking for?

A needle, she replied, I lost it in the morning while sewing the cloth. 

Another asked, Where you lost it, Rabia?

In the kitchen, she said.

All of them stand stunned and speechless, as Rabia lost the needle in the Kitchen and was searching it on the streets.

One pissed off and said, You are such an idiot. You lost the needle in Kitchen and searching for it on the streets, how the hell would you ever find it here?

Her reply makes a mark on the history.

Her words travelled thousand of years. Impacted million and millions of people.

And one who gets them, gets the essence of the Life.

She replied, It's dark in Kitchen so even if I look for it there, I won't get it.

I met four new investors last weekend. All of them are having a positioned life. Car, Bungalows, Assets, Saving and what not.

But here is the fact. 

None of them is happy.

All are super competitive, rich but ridden with jealousy, educated but blind with trust issues, having a high standards of living but low humility.

I am sure, they all are searching their needles in the dark.



Watch this man's video... You will die laughing !!

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Please don't change the World !

I have been an Engineer, handling the entire Crude distillation unit of the Asia's second largest refinery.

I have been an Entrepreneur, heading three businesses.

I have been a Consultant, to Entrepreneurs, Professionals and Non-professional people of almost three continents.

I am trying to be a Researcher.

I am trying to be a Leader.

I am trying to be a Professor

I am trying to find a soul mate

I am trying to be a good Son, Friend, Responsible citizen and Non responsible big brother.

What is that one thing that I am not trying to do?

I am not trying to be the change that I want to see in the world.

I'll tell you one thing.

This is the bravest statement ever.

This is shit.

Please don't change the world.

Why?

In the last decade of my life, I've realized one simple thing.

Whenever you wish or want to change the world, something shit is going to happen.

It doesn't matter if that will happen with you or not, but it will be shit.

Why you would want to change the entire World? Just because you have an itchy ass and don't have anything else to do?

Or because you think there is still a room for improvement in the entire World according to your principles.

I am not sure what else could be the case, but please don't change the world.

World is the perfect in every and each scenario.

You are the perfect in every and each scenario.

This world doesn't need more of the change makers, engineers, business persons, leaders, doctors or assholes.

It needs,

Acts of kindness,

Gestures of love,

And selfless attitudes.

 These three things will only seem logical, doable, rational, executable, feasible, workable or needed, only when you are not in the herd who would want to be the change just so the world can be changed.

These are my favorite lines,

" If you want to do it, there must not be any reason,

If you don't, there can not be any excuse ! "

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Human : An unfinished Animal ?

Damn you Adam Smith.

Read Economist, Financial Express, Washington Post, Guardian, EPW, NY Times, Times.

Almost all others too, have written on the beginning of the fall of Capitalism.

Why?

Because it sucks.

Think deeply, answer to this your own self while in bed, Why the hell will you wake up in the morning and go to work?

Money? Network? Work environment? Your GF or Wife works there too? Targets? Bonus? 

Or

Inspiration? Motivation? Passion? May be I'll create something new tomorrow? Ideas? People who are as mad as I'm and we're going to change the world together?

I never fell in the second list.

Never.

I have been working, had to work and may be will work, just to get a safe life.

Money is the centre point.

Who the fuck did this to me?

You. You fucking Capitalism. No one else. You.

Adam Smith's pivot for the Idea on Industrialisation was??

Any Guess?

Well, he thought, Humans are so lazy to work so only the methods of Incentivizing them and giving them enough pressure along with it, will make them work.

And two centuries passed, what we're doing?

Do you remember the last time when you thought to punch your boss in the face?

I do.

Today.

And I'm gonna do it one day, soon.

They say, even if we're wrong about the Idea of Cosmos, they will go on as they are supposed to.

It is not with Humans.

We understand ourselves and the world around us with the help of Ideas.

How many died with Syrian revolt till date?

May be 2 Million. Or more.

Why?

They thought, suppression and autocratic rule is the Idea to understand the Regime.

One of the great Anthropologist said,

Man is the most Unfinished Animal.

Why?

Because we still are figuring out what and who are we.

So don't be Finished ones.

Find the Idea which you think you must work on or for, not on the ones your Boss says.

Caution: It may happen to one in seven billion of us who's boss is right.

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A smart world

(A tribute to the Syrian Boy)

I have a habit.

Whenever I get time, I go online and watch videos of change makers. 

Larry Page, Steve Jobs, Elon Musk, Obama, Narendra Modi, Mark, Rupert, Nicolas.

Why do they do what they do?

This is the only question I have in mind whenever I watch their speeches.

No, we are using the theorem in wrong manner.

Or may be the theorem is wrong.

We don't need a better world.

You have a car.

Now, you get two or three or Ferrari or higher models.

Is it good? Or better?

Larry once in a talk told, he sees the companies as the agents of change.

When I asked to people in my city, who have companies, almost all said, they want to make this world a better place to live.

I am not sure how clear they are or will be in future.

I don't a better world.

What would it like to be if you get the powers of Superman for one whole year?

You'll fly.

Scan people with your X-ray vision. Cook chicken with laser eyes. Run around the galaxy to see more stars. May be find some new habitats in space.

Then?

If you're a Superman, this will take no more than couples of months.

Okay, so now say, you can share your powers to make others Superman, then?

Well, you will make couples more.

They'll do the same.

They'll make others.

And by the end of the year. Half of the Earth is Superman Superwoman.

They spread out, and in another month or so make the rest of half Superman Superwoman.

Did you get a better world?

I am not sure, but if I would answer this, it is No.

No
No
No
No

I need a smarter world. 

Not full of Superman Superwoman.

What is a smarter world?

The one which....

Get your imaginations running now...!!

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Lesson #1 : Don't plan for the Perfection !

...and how much we lost ?

...almost the entire amount !

Any way to settle ? Should we file a suit ?

Hmm...it will be a civil suit and may take fifteen to seventeen years of trial, and there are much of the chances that he'll walk out safe.

..but how the hell this happened ? Didn't we plan for it ?

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Plan : a detailed proposal of doing or achieving something, says the dictionary.

I'm about to start the next set of business and still the previous blunders haunt me. Haunt the shit out of me. 

What if, the plan doesn't work out? What if the product isn't ready by the time? What if product is a shit? What if the market won't click? What if the network will break? What if there will be legal issues? What if the investors back out? What if the same things will repeat like last time?

What if !

Shit...it freaks me out. Sometimes I can't go to sleep thinking it.

But I'm getting better. 

Better and better at failing. 

Yes. Failing !

This is probably the fourth business in my twenties. And I don't think this will float like a duck.

Then why am I doing this?

Well, I'm in love with the concept and think it will solve a million people's daily problem.

Then why I think it will fail?

Because, I know it will. I always plan for the perfection. And it never goes as planned. So for me, every trial is a failure.

But not in the words of dictionary. My meaning for failure is; another way to know where the success isn't now !

Nothing is permanent. 

A green cafe, the whole and organic food, self brewed beer, solar and biogas powered outlet, battery driven delivery system, making every customer a stakeholder, idea; failed miserably. 

One knucklehead plotted a fraud deal for the rented space, so we lost a huge amount, investors got pissed, partners ran, workers fought for commitment, courts and police didn't help.

Now, there are people calling twice in a month to work for the same idea. How ? Did I do a magic?

Nope. Just time changed. Idea has its potential now when there is a huge capital proposed for the green and clean technology driven businesses.

Even if I'll take the call and start working for it again, I know it will fail. Why? Again, I planned it for the perfection.

A plan for the perfection has always failed on me.

But it has always showed me another way to race. It is not the destination, they say that matters, it is the journey. 

So, I learn from mistakes, and do some more to learn some more. The day I stop doing it, the day I'll be out of last breathe.

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Is money good ?

I get this question a lot.

It's like a world's common question. But the sad thing is that, it has answer. And it will work only for you. Not others.

All have asked, 

Is money good? 
Is power good?
Is having more good? 
Is having good at all?
Do we have to be good?

I call this a ERP problem. When we go for the Enterprise software, it makes the processes digitalize, doesn't matter process is good or bad for the function. 

Same is with these things.

You have it. If you can use your discernment, use it for good or bad, doesn't make much of the sense.

I have had few bucks, I spent them on weird technologies and startups.

My friend had money, he went to Malaysia for family trip. My old boss got some money, he bought a farm. My uncle got money selling a farm, he invested into stocks.

Who is doing good?

Can't say now. Wait and you'll read it here.

But what if Malaysia doesn't come out to be a great choice for family trip, or what if the stock market goes woohoo like 2008 !

Who is going to earn?

Does it make any sense? Who earns and who doesn't?

Well, only when someone was inspired and made a choice.

So, make money and spend on booze, or cruise or gals or shop, or buy a trip to Mars. None of these make sense, when it will be only yours and yours decision to do so.

Else, what would happen?

Well, I have a great deal of patience to wait and write your question in the list.

Don't blame the money, booze, gals, Malaysia, Stocks, Mars for turning out into loss or not. Take a call and play.

Because at the end, the one who will need the answers, is you. And believe me, when you can say this, 

"So what's the big deal? I did it !!"

It feels like heaven !!

Love you all ! 

The Two Face

Yes, it's me !

I am the two face.

Wait, I think we all are.

And I'm not talking about the phrase, two face. It's a villain in Batman.

The most appreciated public prosecutor, Harvey Dent.

He used to serve for city, culling all the bad ass from city. If you know, he was the one to get Rachel initially.

Story goes one and he got hurt at the end with a horrible accident, jeopardy and became The Two Face !

It's a thrilling movie. 

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I have been engaged with some more work with start-up strategy forming, had a good day, great start with Ginger tea (even having right now), good lunch, met a friend, spicy dinner.

But am I happy today ?

Well, I am but I am not.

Had to go to market in the evening to get some vegetables and grocery.

I noticed few more things about my behaviour today. I had in mind to cook eggs or rice.

The entire time, mind was juggling in between eggs and rice. I know neither them of both, a bad choice, though; when it came to take a decision, mind was running like a complex test parameter based scenario analysis model to judge what would suit my mood.

Just for the sake of favour, I was having almost 6 to 7 reasons, why I should cook rice tonight, and 3 to 4 why to go with eggs.

Here is the catch.

All 4 in the favor of eggs were against rice and same was with other scenario. It was hard to make a decision. Both were good, and I knew, I would make the best food tonight, which in fact I did.

But why the choices?

Why the choices which say one is good over others?

Is it really necessary all the times?

Does one option is truley better than the other?

Hmmm... !!

Here is my take on this.

Neither of them are good or bad individually, they both were at par actually.

This isn't only the case with eggs or rice. I was observing my past few days and choices I had made.

I have been baffled in making a decision when I had struck the decision parameter of Value.

Eggs or Rice, value can be different for each, but not the quality.

One has made me happy sometimes, and other has done the same some other times. It was more of the choice to go with the one who had better quality in making me happy.

This was the clashing point for me.

I was trying to measure the Happiness. I am not sure whether I was or I am right in doing so, with eggs or rice, or with the conditions where I had to take the difficult choice, but now I know one more thing about me.

I don't want to measure the Happiness. It isn't a quantity. It's quality.

Chaos V. Order

or

I V. Me   



Good night !

A Programmer !

A programmer goes out to get some dry cleaning. His wife told him, " While you're out pick up some Milk "

He never came Home !

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My wife said: "Please go to the store and buy a carton of milk and if they have eggs, get six." 

I came back with 6 cartons of milk She said, "why in the hell did you buy six cartons of milk"


I said: Because  "They had eggs" !!

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Okay so here's the deal.

I am dealing with few people since last past month, from IT, and they all happened to be working on Coding and Programming side. 

What's common in all of them?

They all are a bunch of Jerks.

Seriously !!

I had the utmost respect for this community, and now I have utmost frustration.

Come on buddy !! You can't even spell, "Travel" ?? And you have a Masters degree in CS ??

The work is for a cashless travel scheme and every single line of the entire content has the word. And what I received for the testing, "Trval".

Every single line. Full of  " Trval " !

My god ! 

This bunch of not so brilliant people spent a whole month and when I got the work last weekend, my eyes were about to pop out after doing the spell check, option correction, sentence placement for whole weekend.

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For a question I had to put an option blank. I thought blank space in the option might create the confusion, as from 250 options, why only one has a blank space. So I wrote in Bold and Italic, " Please keep this space Blank ! "

Ohh My Fucking God !

I saw an Options saying : 

... " Please keep this space Blank ! " ,  instead of a blank space !!

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I really doubt whether this bunch of Jerks will do the project,one day I'll have to fuck their brains out them, if they've got any.

Guys please, if you know any better trick comment or mail. I just want to get the things done while I'm still alive.

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A Leaking Tap !

Okay, so here is the cracking news. 

Page four, maybe, in the local newspaper.

Three successfully looted the City's KFC worth of 70K cash, with a Toy Pistol !

Seriously guys !! Hats Off !

What the hack were you thinking? 
How the hell you thought it through that no one could ever call your bluff during the Heist?

If you ask me, there were the most intelligent Psychoanalyst, designing the heist with a Toy Pistol and making it a success.

We people, seriously are so afraid, even we can't figure out which all of fears are real.

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I had to visit the University, was there for couples of hours, and luckily met one batch mate.

Speaking truth, I never had liked him. 

I mean, he was having good money, nice bikes, cool cellphone, maybe two three girl friends, who wouldn't dislike this kind of DUDE. 

I was a nerd back then, always on time, getting the best grades, making all the professors ponder on queries, participating in nerd events, so who I was, certainly a DUDE of BOOKS.

I could have never thought of this, but surprisingly, I was like a fresh friend to him. 

Those days were having maybe such spell on them, making me competitive to every DUDE.

After such period, when I met him, there wasn't any hatred, dislike, jealousy or sense of competition in my thoughts. 

Amazing. 

I was free from the shackles. 

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Later in the afternoon, plumber came to fix the tap.

He was rusty, not having any tool along, not even having a cap or pair of gloves lingering from the pocket, no safety glasses hanging on neck, no ID.

I was bit conscious and was asking him his details, AFTER LETTING HIM IN THE KITCHEN.

I was like, the moment, I would stop talking he is going to stab with my own Kitchen knife. So, talked, talked and talked some more.

At the last question, when I asked, you're taking too much time, whether you really know what's the issue, he replied, I work at the building right next to your house.

What ??

Had he even understood the question?

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My take aways for this whole freaky day,

A) Don't believe on your fears
B) Don't believe on your feelings
C) Don't believe the plumber who says to get the leaking tap, because he works right next to your house

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Being a little spiritual today,

NOTHING IS BELIEVABLE 

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People Connect

Yes they do.

They just need some reasons for it. At a cafe, bar, restaurant, community programs, fairs, work, meetings, movies. Everywhere.

I have been following the works of Dr Yuval Harari. He has a very intriguing talk on TED.

His works focus on history and rise of the Sapiens. His books are amazing to read. In videos and book he explains why we were able to be the most suitable and united species from the evolution. Definitely, his theories focus on the soft sides of it and not the rationally driven biology or chemistry or genetics one.

The core of the momentum is, we connect, we imagine, we care and we dream. The essence is We.

I found this thing working. I connected with few people today. Two at one cafe. One at the convention centre. One at the restaurant and one at my favourite tea stall.

What was common with all of them?

Well, they all were part of a dream. A dream which I am trying to sell them. A dream for which they see the togetherness and unity. A dream to which they can share their skills and motives. And this is great.

If things go smooth, I'll be having a team made out of them. Or maybe with all of them. Who knows. But I realized one thing more than just connecting. What if we can be together and share the feelings, the pains, problems, hurdles, mistakes, lacuna. What if for the sake of the us all, we can work together just not to prove who or what is the best, but to see how many alternatives can be there. What if for that once, we can work not to find answers to the common questions, but the ways to solve them. May be, then, poverty can have ten solutions. May be one atomic reactor design, or high pressure turbine can have five models to work with,

Isn't is there that the source is focused or localised with the mighty few? Those who can learn, can solve. What if the crowd can give us the list of the best workable and suitable features? Who knows?

What do I know?

We connect. And I felt that today.

Thanks India. Thanks Pune. Thanks Earth.

Love you all !

Bad to Good

A very Bad day for Good.

Had a rough start. Laptop crashed and I was in pain, It was as intense as having a break-up. I actually thought for a moment all my motives to live the life on have gone forever. I lost data, business files, cartoon, my collection of stand-up shows, photos, videos, blog notes everything. And I can not just believe on me for not having back-up.

Fuck !

I had to call Tech support. Guess what ! They can not help if you have a piece out of warranty. Can you believe?

I was looking for my all the contacts to search whom I can go to for getting my baby life. Agony, Pain, Stress, Anger, Foolishness and Feeling of getting the soul crushed into tiny pieces. My god. I was in hell searching for some Ice.

Like all the stories, one of the friends emerged in the afternoon like savior and formatted, replaced the OS and checked the Hard drive, Motherboard and what not. I got the machine back late in the afternoon, but there I realized, I have feelings for machines also :(

I just can't believe not taking the backups. How idiot I can be at times. And how many more times.

Well, it was a frustrating day. Was doing nothing in the evening being the aftershocks of the grief. Had to go for daily jog though.

Sitting numbly at the cafe for couples of hours, when I went to the counter for the memo, an old was clearing out; asked me what I think of the new energy policy of this government. In a shock for a second, I responded in an awe. (Why the hell I should know what they are onto?) For starter I chose word Optimistic.

And it worked.

He was like, getting the exact word he was looking to tag the policy dilemma, since past century. He offered another cup of coffee. We chatted on few topics, I was dragging the discussion for the sake of conversation. But what you know?

I was getting relaxed actually. This conversation was making my agony a little less sharp by every minute I spend in the discussion. Don't know how, but I think this is the key.

Interactions with others make us believe. Make us believe on the life, streams of Good and Bad events, that nothing will be permanent, Machines can be repaired, Too much coffee can make you run for hours, dinner senses die with coffee and much more.

I learned one more thing about me. I need people to connect, share, talk, express, relax, live and experience the balance.

People make me what I am and can inspire what more I can be ever, I guess. But this evening was Bad to Good transformative phenomenon which I witnessed accurately with all my senses and perhaps gratitude, on.

Thanks People.

Love you all.

Take care.

Movie of the Day

Not so bad day.

Had good tea, proper lunch. Worked for couples of hours. Full sleep had made some miracles on the mind. 

Afternoon was pleasing. No disturbances at all. I watch trailers. I watch while keeping the video on mute. Trying to understand the sequences and the story plot. It helps me a lot to know how the fractions from entire movie moulded in a single one or one and half minutes makes me wonder for more, makes me sad sometimes, excites me, rambles my imagination, twist my logic and bend perceptions, stopping to conclude a sane sense out of it.

I watched the compilation of Harry Potter's all Eight movie trailers. 

Here is the link :

Of course the movies were released couples of years back, so when I watched all of their trailers, I didn't get much of the feelings. In fact, I skipped in between to see last two movies' trailers.

But since then I passed my entire evening and dinner time thinking, why I wasn't any of the feelings I got when I had seen the trailers for the first time. Certainly, all eight parts were awesome and I have watched the entire saga for at least four times in a row.

I went to my daily run and was jogging after the dinner. I was watching others on streets. Observing them, some were buying things, some were eating, some were talking, some were jogging like me. I noticed one lady shouting her husband's name maybe. I slowed for like three four seconds to take a peep in the entire event panorama: Her husband was on the opposite track, at the end of the side. Even if she had been using the 500 W speakers, with this much crowd, the gentleman could have got some peaks only. But don't why this lady was not getting the point. She was in some strong feelings may be and so wasn't able to get the situation, traffic, distance, decibel of her own voice, hearing ability of her husband.

I came back drained. Soaked in sweat. Got a quick bath and started to work on strategy for the next phase of the start up. But entire time, that lady and the compilation were bothering me. After like an hour or so, I sat with some hot tea to figure out what the hell was my brain trying to do.

Maybe I understood one thing about the life. I have had some many feelings for the trailers. But once I watched the movies, I understood each of them in depth. I got a chance to walk through each of them, the excitement, sadness, imagination and logic; during the movie. I think this is why when I usually get to know the half of the situation, guessing the other half, I get confusion, anger, rage, sadness, chaos or fears. Knowing only the half creates these anxious behaviours. And when I'm into anyone of them, just like that lady across the road, I forget why isn't my voices reaching the targets.

Anyway, I loved this day. Got to understand one more thing about me.

Thanks and Love you all.

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P.S : It's my brother's birthday today. Happy Birthday Bro !