Last day of July !

Today, I made a new discovery about the self. I am a combination of the biggest jerk ever walked on the face of the earth and the smartest ass ever will round the earth. Jerk was last night to be dull, and ass was today whole day, finding only I had the key to make myself happy or dull.

Cool. I am so excited to find this today.

Morning, till the mid-afternoon, was covered up with the interaction session at NCL with Villgro, these people seriously do some social work. They fund, mentor, develop and build the social start-ups here. I had a bouncy ride in the session though; bit confused, bit tired, bit excited, bit curious and at last exhausted. The reason is the business model canvas part of the session. It is a huge document to prepare before or after starting the business. Actually we are doing it before.

I had fun in between the session, people sharing some amazing ideas, funny ways to do things, market ideas and what not. The gentleman next to me was a founder of the company who designs the modular bio-gas plants for the food industries. He had an eighteen month blockage just to figure out the unit economics parameter to scale up his business. When you’ve left the job and your business is the only source of income, this really is a blockage to your entire life, but anyhow they fought and sold at breakeven to get daily life money. Frankly speaking, you’re doomed, I remember the year of 2011-12, we made huge losses with the first company, and I was barely having money to get some food for one time in a day. It was a horrible period of life. Whatever I am doing today to earn some bucks, is maybe out of that period’s fear. I accept, I don’t want to face it again, as far as possible. Well, they say in positive psychology, we can use the fears and pressures to actually pump the motivation. Watch Shawn sometime, he is also a well-known psychologist, but his TED talk on the link is maybe the funniest talk I have ever seen.

Anyway, I saw few known faces too. Seeing some known people actually helps me to feel secure, feel surrounded with faith and trust, and feel more supported. Don’t know exactly but perhaps the interdependency pillar of the society translates in these feeling.

We parted around three in the afternoon, I came running home and slept for an hour. Woke up made tea, started where I left last night, read Nicolas’s revert, opened up the work papers I carried to the session and started writing down the needed data, learnings and since then was trying to develop new objectives to discuss with team tomorrow. Finished up at ten, quickly made some curry soup to eat and then was surfing through job portals to apply to more things.

So, yes I had an okay to better day today. Was downloading Maz Jobrani’s tour videos to watch today. I have had it in mind since I woke up in the morning that I’ll laugh, as much as I can, so was finding the slopes in the session, during the work and even during the cooking to search the brain for all the funniest things I had gone through. This seems working. I am in a much better and happier stance than last night. Thanks to internet and my memory I suppose.

Oh, one more thing, I was noting down the words that had been used today during the whole session. Some of the most repeated ones are,

SO, YOU KNOW, WE, SUPPORT, WE HAVE, RURAL, SOCIAL, YOU, START-UP, COULD BE, MAYBE, CUSTOMERS, DECISION MAKERS

I read on Norton Sociology blog that this how we can analyse the group’s think and attention over the entire session. I guess pretty much all were focussing to be decisive using the word SO almost five hundred times. Hmm, maybe the session was on improving the decisions we make or will be making on the business.

I was listening to OSHO in the afternoon. But I’ll start writing these stuffs on spirituality bit later, once I get enough understanding and listeners to hear these stuffs.

Maybe I’ll open up more, writing the inner of mind. Later!

It is time to say good night, and start rolling some comedy stuff.

SO, Good night people, Good night Journal, Love you all and thank you all. Good bye July 2015.